- do we have the chance -

actually...tis few month i awiz thinking to let go...but my heart is so pain when i thinking of it...zit she is so cool or im the 1 who is cool until we dint have any topic for us to chat??i reli duno...when i saw her or when she fetch me go somwhere somtime...we just sit inside the car and no chatting at all...got aso is lik "yes" or "no" nia...maybe lik those my frenz say...i reli dint do anything better to prove tat i reli lik her....maybe im the 1 of think too much...as i noe wat my condition now...i dint have anything tat i can gib her...YES!!!tat is NTG!!!i duno wat shud i do....i keep goin to drinking every nite....to cure my sadness as i dun wan to think too much....maybe somtime the outsider wil feel tat im a playfuy guy...but actually im not...i make myself until lik there is ntg for me anymore...chat wif those waitress , vodka saler and many more but they all r not mine and i just love her...JUST her...somtime i cant say out many things from my mouth...i feel tat is so "paiseh" to let them noe...so i awiz keep all those feel and word inside my heart alone and now im goin to "BOOM"....
i noe her thinking is more mature then me..she face so many prob b4....i noe her condition.....
zit i reli din have the chance???i noe u shud noe tat i love u from past years...and i think d 1 years plus if im not mistaken...yes i got say it out to u tat i love you but u just ignore me!!!maybe is im not perfect enough...but dun worry...i wil prove to myself tat i reli sincere and wil try my best for all....tats the things i can do now...when i saw u i reli feel very happy lik last nite...i promise b4 to myself tat i wont touch tat things again as i noe u hate ppl who touch those things...but i break it tis week...but i wil stop to touch those things again...i cant ever break it again....tats the 1st thing i nid to do...i nid to prove it...
actually im happy tat u can mix wif those all my buddy around me...at least they wil take care of u....
i just wana say it out...i reli do LOVE you...hopefully i wil have the chance to be ur partner 1 day... =)

p/s: i LOVE you BY

- colours pub -

finally i recover abit from my cough and flu...so im goin out yesterday nite to colours pub wif frenz...in the afternoon i ask her do her mind to join me at nite to colours pub and she just say "SEE 1ST"...this is her fav slogan...haha...but anyway i reli happy tat she is cuming yesterday after she went to pasar malam wif ai and kaye them....i reli miss her...maybe is kinda weird to her for me to say so...but i reli miss her smile , miss her when she make smtg stup....somtime she is reli cool but somtime she reli funny...i was reading ai blog just now and i noe tat STUP ai ask her to eat those "BUNS"...ai u wil kena from me...u bully her....!!!

p/s: hopefully we can go out more often... =)

- im SICk -

after went out on last sat , so on sun i dint go out and i rest at hum...suddenly after my dinner , i sneezing nonstop...OMG!!!wat happen to me???sit and rest at hum aso can sick???any1 hear b4???but i think maybe is the weather and haze aso lah coz recently penang very haze....then on monday when i wake up i direct flu and sneezing nonstop from morning until nite then after i went hum i fast fast eat those flu pill....then on tues morning , suddenly me sore throat and cough...arrrggg....reli make me so geram...and until now i stil cough nonstop...is the 3rd days d...i think i shud go to doc today or tomolo if my condition is stil the same... =(