<< why do i love you - westlife >>

Suddenly she's
Leaving
Suddenly the
Promise of love has gone
Suddenly
Breathing seems so hard to do

Carefully you
Planned it
I got to know just
A minute to late, oh girl
now I understand it
All the times we
Made love together
Baby you were thinking of him

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Ain't gonna show no
Weakness
I'm gonna smile
And tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Can't go back
Can't erase
Baby your smiling face oh no
I can think of nothing else but you
Suddenly

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

chatting

signing in my msn and i saw her on9...suddenly feel tat wana chat wif her...so i start a converstation...asked her did she take her bonus d and when wana accompany me go to shop??haha...funny rite??act i seldom talk wif her for 1 month and i seldom saw her too...kinda happy when she reply my msg and i keep chat wif her until now....i just keep laughing wif the answer she reply me....!!!sweet.... =)

p/s: hopefully she wil out wif me tis sun or next sunday...may GOD bless me....

the feel

yesterday went to club wif my frenz...so i saw her coz they all choose to sit at the bar which she is standing....was kinda weird y i din have those feel...zit i act COOL or i d gib up???i reli duno....
speechless......!!!! =(

- sleeply -

arrrrggggghhhhhhhhhh.............
y i feel so sleeply everyday??
zit i lack of sleep??
sigh.........

make me cant concentrate wif my so "banyak" eh doc wana key in....!!!
fcking DAMM shit...........

nightmare

nightmare...
dream bout me and 1 of my frenz accident after saw a ghost and the most funniest things is the ghost is one of my frenz face....shit!!!!
praying tat is just dream and wont bcum true.....OMITOFO!!!!
the dream make me wake up from my sleep at 4am!!!gosh....
lastly i late to work 10mins....!!!!

DEFINE event @ autocity juru

leo called me up and told me that she wana go to butterworth for her dinner wif her frenz so after discuss wif me i plan tat she go to eat dinner wif her frenz then me wil goin to autocity juru to meet her after her meal and kaye them is goin to meet us there too...so leo go dinner i went bek bath then my frenz pick up me and straight go to autocity...after reach there, the place is full of car and there wan an event there.so meet leo and kaye there then leo told us she is goin to the DEFINE event so we just follow....
when i went inside it reli SUPRISE me....nice stage...very big...gud dj , the place is very big and last of all the beer and liquor is all FREE....u can drink as many as u wanted.... =)
reli reli so damm high....the party is so crowded wif ppl and i saw many of my frenz there too....

- the group memory -

our group pic which taken on 2008 october by kharling and wayne...our themes mooncake festival....reli very memorable tis pic... inside the pic... ( wind , jammy , kaye , ai , mos , apple , hui ying , yumi and me )

our photograher wif us.... =) winks*

the NAUGHTY boy

here HE is....my boss dearest son which is very NAUGHTY.....awiz distrubing me working....awiz CRY to saja wana his mum to gib him som attention....AND awiz asking me to "bancuh" the milk for him....haha...act he is very smart...he noe to answer and question u wif those teenager minds....somtime very scary thou....she can answer THOSE question....kinda suprising me!!!
recently he seldom cum to my boss office due to he is starting his school and he just came to office once a week which is SATURDAY....so every sat me lik his "nanny" coz i nid to jaga him....my boss and his wife bz wif their restaurant so who else nid to jaga the naughty boy???the answer is ME......... =="

10/01/10 - i dream bout HIM again

last sat i went to ikki ...so just a few of us drink...so i told 1 of my frenz tat last month i dream bout my dad and i ask her how bout her...did she dream bout her dad when her dad pass away last 3 years ago...so she tell me yes and told me bout somtime tis thing very real wan....
so after tat i went bek hum around 1.30am and sleep....wat tat make me wake up in 9smtg in the morning is i dream bout my dad....tis time his face so clear....wat he act...i saw all of it...it make me feel so sad and i cry after i dream bout him....i wake up and i start cry for at least 5min....in my mind im thinking and asking myself....YES...it is so real...i just talk bout his things to my frenz yesterday and i dream bout him tis morning....then i wake up and watch tv....coz of tired i sleep bek around 11smtg and gosh...2nd time i dream bout him...but tis time i just saw his head and i just touch his hair and i told him i reli MISS him alot.......then i wake up from the sleep d....2 time in a day i dream bout him....i stil duno wat actually the sign he wana gib me until now....!!! =(
so ended up i told my mum bout it and u noe lah all aunty wil go do wat after hear tis???must be goin to buy 4D and TOTO........ @_@

PreSsUre , StrEsS , HeaDaChE & tIrEd

since i started work 2 job everyday from morning 8.30 until 10.30 nite i feel so pressure , stress my head keep pain headache nonstop and awiz not enough sleep............YA!!!i noe all my frenz cal me PIG coz i sangat suka to SLEEp............i feel lik lack of sleep everyday........
the gud side is i can earn more MONEY....
the bad things is i cant have a gud gud SLEEP everyday........k im PIG!!!
arrrrrgggghhhh............................!!!!!! =(

- facebook -

i post smtg for her....haha!!!cute....
tat day i try draw few snoopy pic for her but seem the drawing sucks lah...coz i takde art in drawing....but she say is nice....haha!!!make me abit happy on it...
this is wat i draw.....seem so UGLY!!!!
macam kindergarden drawing skill..... =P

- new 2010 -

new year new life and more older d....
the sad things for me is my dad cant even celebrate the new year 2010 wif me and mummy...
he is gone...gone forever... =(
daddy...i MIS u so much...i think of u...and even tat day i dream bout U....
so i told my mummy bout tis and tat day his 49th day we go to pray i asked my mum to buy paper cloth to burn for my dad since i dream tat his bringing out my cloth from the wardrobe....hmm!!!
act wat is the sign he wana gib me???i REALLY duno...yes i admit those few month i change alot when i noe u borrow money from som1 and i nid to settle for u....im MAD...but now....everything is GONE!!!!...............

anyway for my new year wish....
i hope i get more $$$.....
more health....
more SLIM.... (tat i ever wish...DREAMING)
and.....many more!!!

~ missing U ~

MISS u is 1 of the hard things i can describe...
everyday i just hope to see u as soon as i can...
but it just a DREAM of myself... =(

welcum 2010

BYE 2009 and WELCUM 2010
every1 outside there...i wish u all happy new year...
new year...new things...new life...

merry christmas & happy new year

to all my frenz ,

wishing u all MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR.... =)

20/12/09 - avatar

very very nice movie althought it take 2h45m to finish it....luv it...
* i SEE u*...............

- kl trip -

was goin to kl on 18th and 19th wil be flying bek to pg....we choose to go by flight and we choose airasia.on 18th early in the morning nid to wake up to airport coz we took 8.00am flight...abit sleeply coz just sleep for few hours....reach there i meet up alice and her frenz...goin luna bar...very very nice view and place...lik it very much...then alice frenz bring us to poppy and i feel is just ok compare to quattro...i lik quattro more...the music ...
when we goin bek to lcct airport...waiting for our flight "manatau" our flight kena delay until 2h...gosh!!!damm pekchek!!!....reach pg around 12smtg midnite and then we go eat out dinner...yeah!!!the late dinner...reach hum 1smtg...sleep....tomolo morning nid to wake up early go to pray my daddy and then goin to restaurant there helping my boss do smtg...arrrggg.......zzzzz!!!

1 month...

today is 1month of my dad pass away date....
i miss him alot....
the house reli feel so empty without his voice...
everytime when he smoke...i wil yell at him tat it is so smelly....
but now...i miss the smell.... =(
yesterday im alone at hum since my mum is overnite at my aunt house...
everytime when my mum overnite there...
my dad is awiz beside me but now...NO!!...im just alone.... =(

REST IN PEACE daddy....

evisu eyewear

TADA ~ finally i bought my new evisu eyewear....happy happy... HIAK HIAK ~~
but my dearest GF a.k.a WIFE scold me i awiz wasted money while din keep tis money for other things....haha!!!soly lah my dearest WIFE a.k.a LEO....


me wif my new spec.... =)
im planning goin kl tis 18th....
shop shop shop till drop....

16/11/09 - monday

the day tat i wil remember all my life...a very very sad day for me.i LOST 1 of my closer family which is my DAD....im reli reli sad and even i cant control my tears...the moment before he enter the icu ward...i manage to called him "DAD...DAD" but my dad eyes just stare at me and cant even talk d...and the nurse just push me away.... then the nurse transfer him to icu ward and my dad face look very very pale...it just happen too quick...i cant even say hi to my dad...tis is the moment which i nid to be tough...to be strong....
it pass to quick...after the doc ask me to sign the operation agreement...around 3-5mins the doc came out and told me my dad is.....!!!!my tears drop....my mum cry...but wat can we do??the god luv him more...so "he" take him away...

" R.I.P daddy...i luv u and miss u very much...................!! "

even my tears drop now when i writing tis blog post....
my house suddenly feel so empty without HIM....
my life wil change without HIM....
all wil change....
i nid to be strong and tough....
i nid to take gud care of my mum....